This is the start of the morning. The morning that promises high hopes and expectation, and, at the end of the day, nothing works out as planned. That’s life: Never plan.

However, the best part of waking up early morning is when the cold breeze wafts through my face, and there are no kids scampering down the road. I uncoil my muscles while rubbing my eyes and squinting up at the Bhagwan photos, I pray, with hands folded loosely. I pray to the God to dust out the sins hiding beneath us, bring in happiness, add the lacking productivity and most importantly, fill the void by keeping us in peace.

Right then, the muffled stillness is broken, yet again—not just by the news blaring from the television, but from the cawing of crows and chirping of birds whose breed I am unfamiliar with. “Its time,” says mom. What she wants to convey is that it is the time to get ready and head to the college.

And about 30 minutes remaining for the classes to begin, I am dashing around from one corner to the other, with various thoughts milling around in my head—none of them are of any importance. After all things done, I look myself in the mirror, I smile, a bit too much and carry the same smile through the gate, on to the rutted road and to the college. Why? I love to smile. It makes me happy. Makes everyone happy. And most importantly, girls dig guys with good smile.

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Feeling weird.. amused with the energy that’s surrounded here.

I never knew a path existed that would enlighten me, the bigger luxurious goals that I am willing to achieve are succinct and clear now. And I will willing to devote myself to take things to the next level, brick by brick. Whether its relationship, academics, personal related or any thing for that matter, I’ve made up my mind to stay organized, focused and achieve what I want. Sounds like a pledge

While sketching random cartoon on the last page of the notebook, I wanted to write something that’d be more meaningful that those odd cartoons. And in a pretty random fashion I came up with things I’d love to have in my life in the next 2 years. I was kind of surprised that with the things I came up with. I desired for a lot of things, though this wasn’t the first time, but then I knew I want those stuffs in my life.

Feels pretty good when you write about the things you wish you had, and to me – wish is the first step towards reality. I’ve gone nuts figuring out this life.. I have to admit I didn’t take life this easy. I was deceived by people around me, who still thinks life is a bitch. You got to struggle to be successful. At some point, it may be true. But it all depends on how you take this life. Rich gets richer and poor gets poorer not because of the money, or investment but solely because of the way they approach life.

Life can be bitch if you feel it that way. Life is wonderful if you feel it that way. Its not just the thinking that changes ones life, you’ve to feel it. You’ve to admire the beautiful people around you, control yourself and focus of the better part of this life. Trust me, life is wonderful

Okay. Done with those philosophical thoughts! Whenever my soul is charged up with philosophical thoughts, I come here with my 460rs keyboard and write whatever hits my mind as a reference for myself. Poor blog haven’t deserved any sorts of entertainment.

Anyway, focusing on the education part I must say nothings moving. I have stopped caring for it. Starting in a couple of days are the internals and now starts the usual hoopla of where the fcuk is my textbooks dude, early morning phone calls and all sorts of insensible practices are done, apart from studying. Such wonderful life is of the upcoming engineer.

I’ll have a change in couple of weeks (might take a month). I am planning to focus more and more! Changing others life has been a part of this goal. Okay, its 11:45pm now. Lovely weather in Bangalore and right now am finding it hard to find any textbook in my room! Sleep sleep sleep… Wait, it was supposed to be study study study

Back to back 6 days was hectic and fun. No text books and writing it without preparation is the moment I long for Going to library to get the wrong textbook and realizing that I read several topics in one sitting sounds fun now, not at the those very circumstances.

I am expecting 15+ in every subject out of 25, I don’t know if I really care about this. I just wanted to perform well as I promised I would, I could have done awesome because I’ve done it in the past, in a convincing way!

Nonetheless, I’ve always been unresponsive during the internals. I go blank and I blame that partially learnt memory course

Going very early to college, sitting in the basketball court or the forest adda with one eye on the book and the other on finding your beloved friends so as to group study. Things happening at the bb court is amusing. Funnily, revision is not what’s in practice! It’s quite obvious that those friends I know never study or never score more than me. Once they are with you, you would be excited to diversify the topic, it’s not an uncommon thing when you are in engineering. Everyone does that!

Luckily, this college supplies questions, important questions for the internals which has it’s own fallout – But it’s definitely helpful. Although, not every teacher provides such internals important questions and I never really appreciate teachers supporting it, but if they don’t then I wouldn’t have scored 15+.. Man, I sound like an loser

So, now I am free, free to do some useful chores. Gotta make plans this week and work on strict schedule, all I have is 2.5 years of hectic engg education left which is really a LOT. But, all these memories last forever

Internals are commencing from the next week, which means it’s time to stay bindaas. It’s been 2 years since I gave any weight to my education life, perhaps, to study abroad – I’ve to somehow score respectful marks and really concentrate of achieving some grades at least! :/

It was a gloomy day in the college.. and hundreds of people were flocking outside the gate for a reason. It was an campus interview I witnessed for the first time, the winner would be earning himself a super-stressful job in Tech Mahindra. No idea what kind of job would that be, but after analyzing those unhelpful souls sashayed from the scorching suns just to avoid the heat, I felt it in me. At that very moment I knew corporate life isn’t for me.

Not that I can’t battle with the sun, sure I can. The point is about money, not for me but for them. Unfortunately, everyone takes up uninterested and rather unknown job for the sake of money.

I don’t blame them, it’s the cycle of life. You study something, you get trained for something else and you do job you have no idea about, working hours together for.. for 15k..20k salary per month? Sure you will be promoted but darn my self-confidence of becoming the CEO one day. I believe I will start my own small company and be a self-millionaire-entrepreneur How pleasing that would be! So, for now.. job ko maaro goli!

Most of those to-be-employed people  in the college teetered and perhaps, 20% of them were competing; the rest of them were clearly out of the race. Blame the education, or blame the mindset 90% of the Indians grew up with. Nevermind, time to focus on my life

Also learnt some unknown facts about my obnoxious VTU Engineering univ. They have been the first univ. to initiate distance e-learning programmer named EDUSAT, moreover, VTU have the highest recruitment ratio compared to the rest of the Indian universities. Unbelievable.

And, I kinda envy some random friend’s friend who has been to Monaco, Switzerland and UK. Such a wonderful experience, isn’t it?

Wish I had a bag full of moolah’s to throw around. Wish I studied in different places, for instance, schooling in Finland, Puc in Japan or Amsterdam and Engineering in the USA Ah! That’s stressful, but the experience last forever!

Down the line, it’s all about the money and what all you own. For that you need to focus, make an blueprint and have that much needed luck to carry you forward. I’ve my plans and I am waiting to get rid of one small hurdle and perhaps it would take me 4 months to do so. I can wait.

Also, my this years book reading resolution is on full swing. Had to make up my mind to study at least 12 books, rather useful ones that might be super-engaging. Excited to finish them, but all this after the internals which are scheduled to take place back-to-back for 6 days. Already in an studying mood while writing this post..

These two new books were:

Ford Country, John Grisham – Series of stories. Finished reading the first 50 pages in 2 small sittings thanks to the power cut. And, I wonder why the cover of the book has ‘For Indian Sub continental only’ labeled, I guess the foreign version comes with profanity, but that’s what I purchased the book for in the first place

The monk who sold his Ferrari, Robin Sharma – Read couple of pages and I assume this book deals with life and money.

Such a long post. Man, do I ever stick to a single topic. O_O

Note to self – Study for this internals.

Maybe, it’s just me. I am talking such blissful stuffs because I just woke up after my afternoon nap. College was okish today as those strict lecturers never came to the class lol who cares anyway.. I did nothing extra ordinary. Just had some snacks when the lecturer used to teach.. that’s some achievement lol.. but I don’t really encourage such stuffs!

Anyway, I also realized I am aging. Man, I will be 20 by next month.. those numbers suck! I will be an adult I know after 18 you’re called as an adult, but it’s an exception for me!

I am always giggling, for no reason even the silliest joke make me laugh (not that monstrous laugh, it’s fun when you see the poor-joke-cracker laughs on his own bizarre joke). And, I also control my anger, I talk pretty decently, and I am good with giving some helpful advice making me an decent creature and moreover, with no complexity in life, happiness is what I always ask for. Glad to know that God gives me most of the stuffs I ask for

Also, I’ve changed my music genre to gothic/symphonic stuffs. Ladies sing amazingly, isn’t it? Maybe, I can write a whole post on this, sab kuch baadme.

The internals are around the corner too, they will be taking off starting from the next week – With no textbooks and preparations, I am bound to score good marks (hope you got my sarcastic tone) Funny, need to really study coz it’s been a long time since I took my education career seriously, hopefully this time I will not waste my time during the internals.

On a side note, I’ve started reading some personal blogs and also promised myself to read 12 novels in an year. That is, 1 book every month and those are not textbooks FYI BUT, the problem is being with the price, some of the best seller novels are like 500rs+.. lol trying to collect the money and hopefully I will be reading 12 books somehow. Let’s see..

Update: Lol, lots of smilies used in the post

Although I do have some time to spare because there’s not much really going on in life these days, but I am now much more focused on my future and with such thoughts in mind, a man can barely do two things – Take action or sit idle. Sitting idle is my choice right now and I don’t know why…

Happiness follows me. Perhaps, that’s what makes this life more enjoyable, for all I know am considered to be an lucky guy in everything. Thoughts of future doesn’t worry me and I don’t want to blame anyone for my future as well. I don’t want to be a burden to anyone, the thoughts of wanting or owning something in life is beyond my reach. I mean, last night, and perhaps for the very first time I didn’t have sound sleep and I was awake half of the night for no particular reason. Maybe, I can blame the health issues I had faced due to the change in weather.

But, something (the good soul) in me says that I have to recollect all my knowledge and put it in use for the better future. Yet again, one thing (the yet-to-be-figured-out soul) that pulls me back reiterating again n again with questions like what really contributes for an better future? Owning an expensive car, an grand bungalow or achieving some unrealistic feat for the sake of maintaining dignity would be my ultimate choice? I do need an grand bungalow, but the point being, is life all about this?

What really matters in life? Keeping my people happy, the people who surrounds me and the people who care for me are the real assets for me. No bungalow or cars can ever replace them. I know, humans are an ultimate heart-robbing machine, but with proper care most of them would join your path.

But who keeps me happy? Who thinks about me? Funny in a way, reminds me of super tramp, forget people and live your life.. enjoy the nature and look into the sky before reaching the heaven’s gate. Wonderful experience it could be, wish I could do that, probably I would never want to do that. I want to achieve something and die, die while I am asleep.

For all I know, I will be dying in between the age of 60 to 65 (speaking this from my own knowledge of palmistry) which means I still have 40+ years of happiness, twists and mild turns. I reckon that one day I will be re-reading this post and it’s bound to bring a smile on my face! Let’s keep the thoughts of future aside and think of the present It’s hot in Bangalore and wish I was in UK, perhaps I need to secure my present for better future

But slowly there were few instances such as high GPU usage and another website which I wanted to merge with blogote hosting and therefore the idea of VPS came into my mind.

Then the search for a better VPS began, thanks to Rajupp who convinced me that Knownhost was the best choice though I can’t say it right now as I just transferred the blog a hour ago.

After purchasing the plan of VS-2 (I used a coupon KH4LIFE) I got 50% discount for 1st month and 15% lifetime discount monthly. Without the coupon it would cost me 40$ a month. If you are shifting to VPS then do use the coupon, saved our money right

Anyway my smart plan was to buy 3 months vps hosting as they charged me 58$ only but those guys refunded the money later saying me not do such nonsense.. hehe 50% discount was applicable for first month only!

Once I got my VPS details, I tried to shift a test website and was amazed at the WHM panel which made no sense to me. Frankly I expected managed VPS to be easy with one click install type stuffs.. was completely wrong. Seems like it had more options than the unmanaged servers.

As expected there was a failure in the website transfer, after importing the sql on an empty Wordpress blog, the blog went blank. And once again the search for free-expert-help begun. Sandip of blogsdna came to the rescue and invested his time for fixing the issue using many stuffs like commands, putty and ssh that was colorful.

Sadly while doing this, the server at dreamhost went down (Move from dreamhost to Knownhost) and therefore whole process had to be interrupted. Later on one of my classmate who is great at trial and error method (VISHAL) did heavy chutiyapani (as he says) and shockingly it worked Unbelievable! Also he owns blogitem and technro..

Later during the midnite I asked Davinder  from tothepc about silly doubts that were stuck in my tainted mind as I am completely new to VPS – Got amazing info from him and then I kept emailing the knownhost support which was seriously good as I heard/read in forums. The response was always under 30 min and timely. Even Techpavan was there!

And today morning I deleted everything that was uploaded from the server, added the blog on VPS IP address and pointed the files (Me and another friend Karthik from Muzikplanet – Illegal blog ) prayed to GOD for smooth transfer.

And to confirm what I was doing, I asked the young Sizlopedia saad who helped me by explaining the required process for blogote that was very much helpful again.

I used a tool called bigdump to dump the mysql into phpmyadmin as the sql file was larger than expected. And in just 1 hour everything seemed fine until Harsh and Amit bhawani told me there was an 404 error in the blog but later it was fixed by replacing with the old .htaccess file (Yes, we have a happy ending here)

Now I think I don’t have to change the VPS for another 6-12 months. And it was such a great struggle to move but now it’s done and I am happy

The problem with online donation is I am not sure if the organizations really use the money for helping the needy and poor people. But I’ve done my part and after another research I’ve donated some funds to these organization. Hope it will be used as they say.

Donated to http://www.cpforseniors.org/

Amount – 15$

The org helps senior citizen by providing free food and social interaction keeping them alone from solitude and depression which is a great thing.

Donated to http://povertyeradication.info/client/index.aspx

Amount -  ( Rs  1000) – 23.26 USD

An Indian poverty helping association who helps people that are grouped into education, health and employment. I’ve donated to the student welfare and those who couldn’t afford a better education due to poverty.

If you’ve some amount of money that you think can help and serve the needy then do not forget to donate. It makes us happy!

Personally I have seen content idea theft done a lot in the blog world, it’s not that I am the only one guy who always writes unique content. Everyone copies right? Whether it’s the idea or the whole blog post – most of them do this.

Does that Plagiarism effect me? I confess that IT SUCKS when you know someone is copying your content idea, especially if your idea is unique and the bloggers who copies the idea doesn’t even credit you. It’s been around 1 year since I understood how plagiarism works out and why people copy article without proper credits. Maybe I might have done that sometimes in the eyes of another blogger but it was rather unintentional. And they would say the same thing to me!

I know people copy MY posts as well, so this is like a never ending chain with cat-dog fights. We can definitely stop the blogger from copying the articles by asking them politely. If they have the common sense they would link back, if not – ignore it. At least that’s what I prefer. Now I usually Ignore those nice people..

There were so many guys I have contacted about content theft in the past, some agreed they copied and gave a legal backlink whereas other’s were saying the same thing such as it is all legal and other smart replies which I thought was completely useless as they know they have cheated there own conscience.

So fed up with plagiarism, I would like to ignore all of them who copies content without giving any credit or whatsoever   Perhaps you might be a good human being offline but not in the ONLINE world!

Think about it at least once, money does matter but to some extent only.